Ignore my poor grammar, just something that can relief from my tears and is to blog all my sorrows out. I have no one to listen to what I am mumbling at this hour, just bear with me...
You should know what we have promised. What should be taken out as a topic and what's over it's over. Never have I blame you brought that topic out, naturally if you repeat and repeat again and saying my fault but you're right, of course I will get irritated. I knew that I have talk rudely but that is not on purpose. Just want to make you a little happy. Rush back and just wanna have a few words with you before you goes up. Just want to pass you the present that I have bought. Because I thought when you see it, you will not be that moodless. Never have you willing to open and see what it is, you still turn me down saying that the mood now is not suitable for opening this present. Do you know how upset when this kind of words is being said out from your mouth. I have never do such silly stuffs. During halfway of the dinner, I act that I wanna go to the Ladies. But I ran all the way down to get the present. I know he will says is a waste of money. But that suppose to be he's Valentine's present. Just because I don't want him to be unhappy, I decided to give him that present first.
Although the present was kind of same as last year, but it was not the correct size and scratches is all over. Just wanna get a new one so that you could wear it on the number forth. Say I am nonsense, excuses whatsoever... I don't care! Friends around me told me that since I choose this path, accept it and treat him nicely. I have never want any in return but can you just show a little nicer to me. If I can choose to have my birthday wish this year, all I want is you who will treat me nicer. You know that I dislike you talking rudely to me. Respect me as your partner as I respect you. The past you can ever treat your ex gf so nice, I don't compare but at least treat me just a little nicer. just a little will do. show me that you care about me, show me that you will give me a hug and calm me down when i'm down. ain't this suppose to be a guy should do?
Yes, he have got his reasons for not wanting to open the present but me also would like him to feel for me. I accpet his reasons, doesn't mean what he said and does is totally right. So what the present is being open tomorrow with a happy mood. Guess that kind of mood is already lost. That very kind of first saw the present, first holding it, first open it, first wearing it... all gone! For all my days, I have been wanting someone to be happy before me. If I am sad, but you are sad too, I will make sure to make you feel better and make you smile first. I have never care if I am sad or what. Because the moment I see you are smiling or happy. I am happy! At least I made someone else smile even though im still feeling upset. To all my true and best friends, my beloved ones should know this is my style. I put YOU as first and putting ME at last.
People have been saying that I am stupid, I make myself in this suffer state. How I want to prove them wrong. How I want to carry on and show that it works. I have been trying all my best. my very best. Putting in all efforts for only one reason... I love you and I mean it.
What more can I say? I am just so so so unlucky. Met an accident last Friday on the way to work. I am not going to elaborate further. But what I can say that, it is not totally my fault! Some arsehole who don't know how to drive swerve out when i am just beside and my poor DRZ mirror hit its mirror and my DRZ fall and hit the car on the left! Best part, I haven't even got the chance to scold or able to think properly... that fellow check its mirror nothing wrong and off they go! How ironic it is. One word to describe, UNLUCKY...
Total damage I would presume is about bloody "FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFITY DOLLARS".
By right, tomorrow I am going down with darling to the car shop. But his eyes got infected and so last mintue that I have to get my best buddy to go with me. I pray hard that she will be able to wake up tmr... I really hope that tomorrow will be a good day and I will not be the carrot that let the car shop chop!
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Having alittle thoughts... If I am gone the next day or even now or even the future, I hope that I can enjoy every single bits of sad, happy, joy and sorrows moments. At least, at the very last I know I have not waste my entire life.
Feeling quite upset now. Not sure why! But hope that after talking to my five years of good friends will help a little... Sighs! =.=
Well this 2010 what else can I say... the start was not terrific at all!
I'm having some goals to accomplish this year! Which I really hope that I can do it.
Here's the list:
- Change of job - Jog everyday - Class 3 - Diploma in Law
I am not greedy. So just this few resolution will do. God please light me to the path! I hope that I can save more in order I can accomplish my class 3 and studies.
Wish me luck, folks!
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Darling is in Thailand since Monday for two weeks. Although it is not the first time he left me so long for work but still I am not happy at all that he isn't by my side. Everyday facing the webcam just to listen to his voice and see him at the screen once a day. If you all know how does it feels, it is really so sucks! But what to do... I still have to accept it! Sighs...
It's only day 3 of the starting and its getting to my nerves. I have never been so mad, so upset before. Teared for an hour but all I want is just the comfort from you. As usual, you will never bother. For what-so-ever reason, I'm just so pissed off!
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Tomorrow will be first day of the working year. Hope everything will be smoothly the year ahead. Not to mention, CNY is coming soon in a month time! Yippie :)
Nothing for me to blog, back from holiday but not a joyful want. Planning for more holiday this year, hopefully will be able to go somewhere far far away!
At this moment I am still at darling's place. Awaiting for him to be awake can really kill.. haha!
Anyway, just some random thoughts...
Firstly, I NEVER say HP laptop is very very good. Secondly, I swear I DID say compare Compaq to HP obviously HP is much better. (If you use laptop you should know, as compare to Acer all those lousy brand HP is much of a better choice. And stupid also know that Toshiba, Fujistu, Mac is much more better!) Thirdly, I will never ever offer or advice any people anymore. Fourthly, I apologized that I did not check properly on the EPP scheme. My mistake. Lastly, NEVER EVER PUT YOUR WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!!
I'm kinda pissed with this thingy. But I'm glad that darling told me. Next time no more being the good person.
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Darling is rich, he bought his PENTEX already!! Yes, I want to have one too. haha! This few weeks I'm rather "Suay"... After "Lao Sai", kanna PIG FEET (due to going my darling huiying chalet). Till now the itchiness still unbareable. I need to apply the cream then it will stop the itch a while and then back again.
7 MORE DAYS and I will say goodbye to work and hello to work on next year! I am very very looking forward to it. Counting down to 11 more days to Batam with darling! Loving him more and more each day... Although everytime he says me, I will feel alittle unhappy sometimes. However, I know that he still loves me alot :)
Blessed.
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Okie... Time to wake darling up. I have been waiting for nearly two hours!!
It's already December, which means less than 1 month... Year 2010 will arrive! Okie, time to clear my anunal leaves and hitch on a getaway with darling.
Last year we went to batam and is quite a boring want but this year we are going to a different side of batam. We are going to have sea sports and lotsa fun, i believe. Just can't wait to the day arrive. I will be on leave after X'mas till 4Jan'10. I might be bringing some leave over to Jan'10 if not will be clearing before X'mas. Now is only start of the week and I'm already so looking forward to the getaway with darling. haha!
Currently at work and is waiting for work to end in an hour time. Going to BPP with darling to have dinner and home to rest... Awaiting for weekends already ;)
I'm fucking upset, fucking pissed. Ever since you are back, I am like talking to a wall. You said I'm nonsense? What am I to you? just to satisfy your needs, sex toys? What I wanted was just a hug. Even if you go Geylang and paid for sex, aftermath they even get to cruddle. Just because you are late meeting your friends, you get so impatient and says I'm nonsense? Yes, your friends is more important than giving me a hug. I realized that you have never apologised to me over these 1 year. I'm the one who always says sorry just don't want you to get mad. Always pointing me at fault but not you. I wonder how have I turn to be so genorous and kind for giving in you.
I am poundering now... you are having so much hobbies and now you even want a DSLR for another hobby? how much time do you have for all your hobbies and how much time do you have for me? can't you ever spare a thought for me. I am a girl and needs care and love too.
Ask you 1 question need ask 5times or more, you not tired I also tired ah... Is you who makes me keep asking and yet you don't want to answer. This makes you irriated and says I'm naggy? look who force me to ask and ask. If you bother to answer, I will not repeat myself.
What I want was never so difficult.
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I cried painfully while riding back just now. It's so hurt that my tears never stops. I even think of just bang the car and hope I die, if only that is so easy.
Ask you to reach the destination, give me a call or sms. Nothing was done. You really treat me like grass. A grass that you can step on.
Until now, my tears flows down aimlessly. Ultimate pain!
Love bikes.
Love track.
Love perfectionist.
Love my darling.
Dislike being misunderstood.
Dislike moodswings.
Dislike quarrels.
Dislike being alone.
Dislike liars.
*My Second Love*
My Beauty.
My Pride.
我永远的最爱!
The one that go through every UPs and DOWNs in my life.
Every single moments .Happy.Sad.Depressed.Joyful. He will always be there.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Never Have I Been so Dread Down... @ 3:44 AM
Ignore my poor grammar, just something that can relief from my tears and is to blog all my sorrows out. I have no one to listen to what I am mumbling at this hour, just bear with me...
You should know what we have promised. What should be taken out as a topic and what's over it's over. Never have I blame you brought that topic out, naturally if you repeat and repeat again and saying my fault but you're right, of course I will get irritated. I knew that I have talk rudely but that is not on purpose. Just want to make you a little happy. Rush back and just wanna have a few words with you before you goes up. Just want to pass you the present that I have bought. Because I thought when you see it, you will not be that moodless. Never have you willing to open and see what it is, you still turn me down saying that the mood now is not suitable for opening this present. Do you know how upset when this kind of words is being said out from your mouth. I have never do such silly stuffs. During halfway of the dinner, I act that I wanna go to the Ladies. But I ran all the way down to get the present. I know he will says is a waste of money. But that suppose to be he's Valentine's present. Just because I don't want him to be unhappy, I decided to give him that present first.
Although the present was kind of same as last year, but it was not the correct size and scratches is all over. Just wanna get a new one so that you could wear it on the number forth. Say I am nonsense, excuses whatsoever... I don't care! Friends around me told me that since I choose this path, accept it and treat him nicely. I have never want any in return but can you just show a little nicer to me. If I can choose to have my birthday wish this year, all I want is you who will treat me nicer. You know that I dislike you talking rudely to me. Respect me as your partner as I respect you. The past you can ever treat your ex gf so nice, I don't compare but at least treat me just a little nicer. just a little will do. show me that you care about me, show me that you will give me a hug and calm me down when i'm down. ain't this suppose to be a guy should do?
Yes, he have got his reasons for not wanting to open the present but me also would like him to feel for me. I accpet his reasons, doesn't mean what he said and does is totally right. So what the present is being open tomorrow with a happy mood. Guess that kind of mood is already lost. That very kind of first saw the present, first holding it, first open it, first wearing it... all gone! For all my days, I have been wanting someone to be happy before me. If I am sad, but you are sad too, I will make sure to make you feel better and make you smile first. I have never care if I am sad or what. Because the moment I see you are smiling or happy. I am happy! At least I made someone else smile even though im still feeling upset. To all my true and best friends, my beloved ones should know this is my style. I put YOU as first and putting ME at last.
People have been saying that I am stupid, I make myself in this suffer state. How I want to prove them wrong. How I want to carry on and show that it works. I have been trying all my best. my very best. Putting in all efforts for only one reason... I love you and I mean it.
What more can I say? I am just so so so unlucky. Met an accident last Friday on the way to work. I am not going to elaborate further. But what I can say that, it is not totally my fault! Some arsehole who don't know how to drive swerve out when i am just beside and my poor DRZ mirror hit its mirror and my DRZ fall and hit the car on the left! Best part, I haven't even got the chance to scold or able to think properly... that fellow check its mirror nothing wrong and off they go! How ironic it is. One word to describe, UNLUCKY...
Total damage I would presume is about bloody "FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFITY DOLLARS".
By right, tomorrow I am going down with darling to the car shop. But his eyes got infected and so last mintue that I have to get my best buddy to go with me. I pray hard that she will be able to wake up tmr... I really hope that tomorrow will be a good day and I will not be the carrot that let the car shop chop!
-
Having alittle thoughts... If I am gone the next day or even now or even the future, I hope that I can enjoy every single bits of sad, happy, joy and sorrows moments. At least, at the very last I know I have not waste my entire life.
Feeling quite upset now. Not sure why! But hope that after talking to my five years of good friends will help a little... Sighs! =.=
Well this 2010 what else can I say... the start was not terrific at all!
I'm having some goals to accomplish this year! Which I really hope that I can do it.
Here's the list:
- Change of job - Jog everyday - Class 3 - Diploma in Law
I am not greedy. So just this few resolution will do. God please light me to the path! I hope that I can save more in order I can accomplish my class 3 and studies.
Wish me luck, folks!
-
Darling is in Thailand since Monday for two weeks. Although it is not the first time he left me so long for work but still I am not happy at all that he isn't by my side. Everyday facing the webcam just to listen to his voice and see him at the screen once a day. If you all know how does it feels, it is really so sucks! But what to do... I still have to accept it! Sighs...
It's only day 3 of the starting and its getting to my nerves. I have never been so mad, so upset before. Teared for an hour but all I want is just the comfort from you. As usual, you will never bother. For what-so-ever reason, I'm just so pissed off!
-
Tomorrow will be first day of the working year. Hope everything will be smoothly the year ahead. Not to mention, CNY is coming soon in a month time! Yippie :)
Nothing for me to blog, back from holiday but not a joyful want. Planning for more holiday this year, hopefully will be able to go somewhere far far away!
At this moment I am still at darling's place. Awaiting for him to be awake can really kill.. haha!
Anyway, just some random thoughts...
Firstly, I NEVER say HP laptop is very very good. Secondly, I swear I DID say compare Compaq to HP obviously HP is much better. (If you use laptop you should know, as compare to Acer all those lousy brand HP is much of a better choice. And stupid also know that Toshiba, Fujistu, Mac is much more better!) Thirdly, I will never ever offer or advice any people anymore. Fourthly, I apologized that I did not check properly on the EPP scheme. My mistake. Lastly, NEVER EVER PUT YOUR WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!!
I'm kinda pissed with this thingy. But I'm glad that darling told me. Next time no more being the good person.
-
Darling is rich, he bought his PENTEX already!! Yes, I want to have one too. haha! This few weeks I'm rather "Suay"... After "Lao Sai", kanna PIG FEET (due to going my darling huiying chalet). Till now the itchiness still unbareable. I need to apply the cream then it will stop the itch a while and then back again.
7 MORE DAYS and I will say goodbye to work and hello to work on next year! I am very very looking forward to it. Counting down to 11 more days to Batam with darling! Loving him more and more each day... Although everytime he says me, I will feel alittle unhappy sometimes. However, I know that he still loves me alot :)
Blessed.
-
Okie... Time to wake darling up. I have been waiting for nearly two hours!!
It's already December, which means less than 1 month... Year 2010 will arrive! Okie, time to clear my anunal leaves and hitch on a getaway with darling.
Last year we went to batam and is quite a boring want but this year we are going to a different side of batam. We are going to have sea sports and lotsa fun, i believe. Just can't wait to the day arrive. I will be on leave after X'mas till 4Jan'10. I might be bringing some leave over to Jan'10 if not will be clearing before X'mas. Now is only start of the week and I'm already so looking forward to the getaway with darling. haha!
Currently at work and is waiting for work to end in an hour time. Going to BPP with darling to have dinner and home to rest... Awaiting for weekends already ;)
I'm fucking upset, fucking pissed. Ever since you are back, I am like talking to a wall. You said I'm nonsense? What am I to you? just to satisfy your needs, sex toys? What I wanted was just a hug. Even if you go Geylang and paid for sex, aftermath they even get to cruddle. Just because you are late meeting your friends, you get so impatient and says I'm nonsense? Yes, your friends is more important than giving me a hug. I realized that you have never apologised to me over these 1 year. I'm the one who always says sorry just don't want you to get mad. Always pointing me at fault but not you. I wonder how have I turn to be so genorous and kind for giving in you.
I am poundering now... you are having so much hobbies and now you even want a DSLR for another hobby? how much time do you have for all your hobbies and how much time do you have for me? can't you ever spare a thought for me. I am a girl and needs care and love too.
Ask you 1 question need ask 5times or more, you not tired I also tired ah... Is you who makes me keep asking and yet you don't want to answer. This makes you irriated and says I'm naggy? look who force me to ask and ask. If you bother to answer, I will not repeat myself.
What I want was never so difficult.
-
I cried painfully while riding back just now. It's so hurt that my tears never stops. I even think of just bang the car and hope I die, if only that is so easy.
Ask you to reach the destination, give me a call or sms. Nothing was done. You really treat me like grass. A grass that you can step on.
Until now, my tears flows down aimlessly. Ultimate pain!
Wedding on 11/11/11
Class 2 Bikey 
Never Have I Been so Dread Down...
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Never Have I Been so Dread Down... @ 3:44 AM 
