Ignore my poor grammar, just something that can relief from my tears and is to blog all my sorrows out. I have no one to listen to what I am mumbling at this hour, just bear with me...
You should know what we have promised. What should be taken out as a topic and what's over it's over. Never have I blame you brought that topic out, naturally if you repeat and repeat again and saying my fault but you're right, of course I will get irritated. I knew that I have talk rudely but that is not on purpose. Just want to make you a little happy. Rush back and just wanna have a few words with you before you goes up. Just want to pass you the present that I have bought. Because I thought when you see it, you will not be that moodless. Never have you willing to open and see what it is, you still turn me down saying that the mood now is not suitable for opening this present. Do you know how upset when this kind of words is being said out from your mouth. I have never do such silly stuffs. During halfway of the dinner, I act that I wanna go to the Ladies. But I ran all the way down to get the present. I know he will says is a waste of money. But that suppose to be he's Valentine's present. Just because I don't want him to be unhappy, I decided to give him that present first.
Although the present was kind of same as last year, but it was not the correct size and scratches is all over. Just wanna get a new one so that you could wear it on the number forth. Say I am nonsense, excuses whatsoever... I don't care! Friends around me told me that since I choose this path, accept it and treat him nicely. I have never want any in return but can you just show a little nicer to me. If I can choose to have my birthday wish this year, all I want is you who will treat me nicer. You know that I dislike you talking rudely to me. Respect me as your partner as I respect you. The past you can ever treat your ex gf so nice, I don't compare but at least treat me just a little nicer. just a little will do. show me that you care about me, show me that you will give me a hug and calm me down when i'm down. ain't this suppose to be a guy should do?
Yes, he have got his reasons for not wanting to open the present but me also would like him to feel for me. I accpet his reasons, doesn't mean what he said and does is totally right. So what the present is being open tomorrow with a happy mood. Guess that kind of mood is already lost. That very kind of first saw the present, first holding it, first open it, first wearing it... all gone! For all my days, I have been wanting someone to be happy before me. If I am sad, but you are sad too, I will make sure to make you feel better and make you smile first. I have never care if I am sad or what. Because the moment I see you are smiling or happy. I am happy! At least I made someone else smile even though im still feeling upset. To all my true and best friends, my beloved ones should know this is my style. I put YOU as first and putting ME at last.
People have been saying that I am stupid, I make myself in this suffer state. How I want to prove them wrong. How I want to carry on and show that it works. I have been trying all my best. my very best. Putting in all efforts for only one reason... I love you and I mean it.
Love bikes.
Love track.
Love perfectionist.
Love my darling.
Dislike being misunderstood.
Dislike moodswings.
Dislike quarrels.
Dislike being alone.
Dislike liars.
*My Second Love*
My Beauty.
My Pride.
我永远的最爱!
The one that go through every UPs and DOWNs in my life.
Every single moments .Happy.Sad.Depressed.Joyful. He will always be there.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Never Have I Been so Dread Down... @ 3:44 AM
Ignore my poor grammar, just something that can relief from my tears and is to blog all my sorrows out. I have no one to listen to what I am mumbling at this hour, just bear with me...
You should know what we have promised. What should be taken out as a topic and what's over it's over. Never have I blame you brought that topic out, naturally if you repeat and repeat again and saying my fault but you're right, of course I will get irritated. I knew that I have talk rudely but that is not on purpose. Just want to make you a little happy. Rush back and just wanna have a few words with you before you goes up. Just want to pass you the present that I have bought. Because I thought when you see it, you will not be that moodless. Never have you willing to open and see what it is, you still turn me down saying that the mood now is not suitable for opening this present. Do you know how upset when this kind of words is being said out from your mouth. I have never do such silly stuffs. During halfway of the dinner, I act that I wanna go to the Ladies. But I ran all the way down to get the present. I know he will says is a waste of money. But that suppose to be he's Valentine's present. Just because I don't want him to be unhappy, I decided to give him that present first.
Although the present was kind of same as last year, but it was not the correct size and scratches is all over. Just wanna get a new one so that you could wear it on the number forth. Say I am nonsense, excuses whatsoever... I don't care! Friends around me told me that since I choose this path, accept it and treat him nicely. I have never want any in return but can you just show a little nicer to me. If I can choose to have my birthday wish this year, all I want is you who will treat me nicer. You know that I dislike you talking rudely to me. Respect me as your partner as I respect you. The past you can ever treat your ex gf so nice, I don't compare but at least treat me just a little nicer. just a little will do. show me that you care about me, show me that you will give me a hug and calm me down when i'm down. ain't this suppose to be a guy should do?
Yes, he have got his reasons for not wanting to open the present but me also would like him to feel for me. I accpet his reasons, doesn't mean what he said and does is totally right. So what the present is being open tomorrow with a happy mood. Guess that kind of mood is already lost. That very kind of first saw the present, first holding it, first open it, first wearing it... all gone! For all my days, I have been wanting someone to be happy before me. If I am sad, but you are sad too, I will make sure to make you feel better and make you smile first. I have never care if I am sad or what. Because the moment I see you are smiling or happy. I am happy! At least I made someone else smile even though im still feeling upset. To all my true and best friends, my beloved ones should know this is my style. I put YOU as first and putting ME at last.
People have been saying that I am stupid, I make myself in this suffer state. How I want to prove them wrong. How I want to carry on and show that it works. I have been trying all my best. my very best. Putting in all efforts for only one reason... I love you and I mean it.
