Everyday is beautiful (:

Died down

2010-09-20T14:37:00.002+08:00

Seems like my blog has died down! haha. Anyway life was good. I heard someone talking about ME MISSING THAT ASSHOLE and spreading mouth to mouth with salt and pepper. Thanks to whoever it is, you will be punished by whichever GOD if you continue. May God Bless YOU!

It is a busy end-of-month with losta weddings weddings weddings!

Coming month, I gonna slim to the max for upcoming wedding photoshoot in taiwan next year. Not forgetting gonna get a new bed, whoredrobe etc. So many things need to plan! It is so not easy...

Planning for another holiday end of the year, hopefully!

Life just gets better everyday with him around.

Thanks baby :)

It is all about understanding

2010-07-31T14:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I don't wish to live in reality and loves comparison. Being selfish is human nature. Everything done is with a purpose behind.

I have found out that blogging is actually a nonsense. Still, I blogged. Why? I don't know. Growing older each day I've found out that I can't express myself well anymore. What I want in my life actually? A good boyfriend, doesn't mean a good husband. A good friend, doesn't mean a good pal for life.

So what people who are saying bad about me behind? I don't care. If one is going to believe, so be it. Each have every good points and is for you to find out and realize.

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Alright. I don't know what I am writing again. haha!

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I just want to be happy. Getting the things I want and which will makes me happier that way, I hope. Being quite down for the past few months actually. Too much things happened that I can't digest equally.

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I want to makes things happen but I have no longer the spark to do it. Anyway, I shall wait and leave everything undone till the right time. Will not open my mouth anymore to ask for this and that.

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My dream... is to be happy! What I desire has already gone with the wind...

Things to accomplished this year, getting a diploma certificate in wedding planner or something which I can afford and that beats my interest. I just want to focus a thing at a time now.

Striving hard for my work to have a better life.

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If we hold on together...

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

Sometimes...

2010-07-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

I really wonders does men always want to be at the top of every women? So what does that means when a girl rides a bike? It makes you feel no power over the women? If not why everytime your face turns black when I'm riding? Anyway, I just fucking hate people with egoistic nowadays. Let me do what I want and not refrain me from doing what I don't want. If ego is so important or what that is your issue. It's never mine.

Speaks about EGO! It's because of ego, I have ended the last relationship. So now, I hate men with all their bullshit EGOs over women. It is so ridiculous. They may not knew it until women tell them that they are actually so freaking ego!

Finding out the differences...

I don't know how long can I wait till the very day that someone has changed to a better man.

Dreaming of the romantic proposal, wedding etc... It's all about dream... Coming true anot, it will be always question mark ??? Oh well... I never put on so much hope either.

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Yeah!! Hopefully Siti will be able to tender and come over my workplace next month. The excitement was indescribable. hehe :)

Okie, I am tired... Good night pals!

*anyway i don't know what i'm writing about*

Appreciate?

2010-07-17T12:17:00.002+08:00

No one will ever appreciate the things that you have done to them. Not even one, but all. No matter the point where you come from, they will think that my point of view is never correct. While theirs is right. Can't even accept the wrong or misjudgment.

Their thinking will always fall on the narrow side. Not that I don't understand. I know the point where it comes from. But does they understand your point? I have given up. Given up to HELP where it's non of my business. Just like many says, if it's isn't fall under your concern. Why offer a helping hand? Not that they are selfish but at least they know that they won't get into any trouble. I truly agree!

Many things when one says will change. But they didn't. After everything, things happen over and over again. Should I still forgive when each and everytime it's the same issue. A leopards will never change. The stubborn-ness will kill every single relationship. If you're still living in your own world, taking things to yourself, blaming others while thinking you are right, etc...

I laughed. Because I see this in myself for the past few years. Now, I have already looked more ahead. Thinking each and every possibility before things may happened or starting to begin.

Alyce, you can't change a person. (you should know that by now) No point asking someone to change when they don't even put in effort to listen and take people advice. Likewise, I am still living much more on my own now. Just to refrain from getting hurt. People might think it's selfish, perhaps there is a better way to prevent it. But as of now, this is how things are.

I have been changing, changing for a better person. Getting more understanding as time goes by. Being more mature in thinking and living a life filled with thankfulness. It's never easy having both hands to clap together in a same beat. I never expect someone to change for me. I want the person change because he knows that actually there might be other solutions but not only one. I want him to know that possibility is made up by own, not others. When he can master the thinking out of the box, then he has successfully know the life of living.

There are always 101 possible ways in every scenario, every issue, every solutions. Yes, you might be strong in this area. How about others? Have you yet to try and understand? seeking people advice and searching for more information? By blaming it never helps, never solve.

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YES, NEVER RUSH! RUSHING WILL NEVER TURNS OUT GOOD AT THE END.

On the surface, happy is the word. Deep down, no one knows how happy it was.

I have became someone whom don't have much feelings in everythings ever since things have been falling all over me. Regaining the confidence in life, it takes millions of step. And to understand someone, it takes a lifetime. But who will survive till the end, that is another question.

This is all so common : Avoiding, pushing, blaming, don't accept people views, don't look ahead, never widen your circle in life and prospect. Only after reflection and change repeatedly, you will then know the purpose of life is.

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Lord, I give thanks to you. The almighty God that will always lead me to the right path of life each time i prayed. And DAD, you make me realize a lot of things ever since your departure. Thanks dad! I love you.

It's time for some serious stuffs.

2010-06-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

I am sick for the fifth day of work! I can't believe it. Down with all the flu virus. Thank God that I have a caring boyfriend.

Watched the whole episode of Parental Guidance. It hit on a lot of points that being a daughter is never easy and it teaches me full lots of things. Perhaps it is a wake up call for me. Next weekend we are gonna make a huge commitment and hope we made the right decision.

We'll have hell lots of things to handle and to set things right. From now on, we will learn together!

I hope we can make it together dear! :)

BUSY BUSY

2010-06-23T22:28:00.002+08:00

Haven't been posting about my new job. It's fun having so much things to do at work. Never in my life have been so routine and busy before. Although it's quite stressful during the start but still manageable at this time. Hopefully things will get better and I will be able to cope. Thanks dear for encouraging me all the way. I have been very demoralised this few days as I scared that I am not able to cope at all. It's never easy during the start. But I will JIA YOU~

Today, dear went for operation. A day that I live with fear during that few hours. I am on training and I am not able to be with his side. I am sorry dear. I feel so heart pain when I saw the stiches. I know it is very pain but he never say it out. His expression has made it very clear. He's on MC for 2weeks. Sighs! No words can describle how miserable and worried during that few hours he's in the operation...

Dear, thanks alot. You should know that not only a thank you, it's something even more. Sorry for very impatient and emotional during the past few days. Thanks for all the compromise! Love ya lots :)

Bye Bye HP!

2010-06-17T14:32:00.003+08:00

The day has finally arrived. This will be the last time I'm blogging using HP lappy. Days have been great over the two year plus. Having great colleagues and friends. I have a made a few good friends that I will remember them for life. (Siti, Sam, Jesel, Florence) They are the few that never failed to provide laughter, sharing problems together. Never fight, never quarrel. They made you feel close being together. After all these years, we moved on to a better prospect in life. I missed them truly. I guess, I will not find any good friends like all of you!

When you gets older, the harder to trust and believe your colleagues. From colleagues to friends is a gamble. People out there isn't that good after all. Office politics is never-ending. haha~

The last shot of my office belongings...

GOODBYE HP!

I will never miss my workplace organization. But I will missed all the people here. Keep in touch folks :)

Blues :(

2010-06-15T12:00:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning Monday @ CGH...

I think even we have an appointment, it doesn't help much! Spent almost half a day at there.

Slack all the way at his house and his mom cook! Okie, I'm so blessed with them around. haha. Had a little emotional but everything managed to solve and tada~ my favourite rainbow jelly that makes my mood better :)

This morning, I saw the flower at the vase! Thanks mummy.

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While having my breakfast and lunch! My back teeth out of a sudden just chip off and there goes I need to visit the dentist later. So damn sucky can :(

Long Weekends

2010-06-14T01:30:00.001+08:00

Saturday, went to watch Karate Kid and to collect our ring! This time round, I have no longer need to spend this kinda thing. It's him who choose and buy!

Sunday, we went to CHIJMES for photoshoot. This is the most memorial gift for us! The picutre will only be ready in a month. Here's a few picture...

The day, he actually knee down and ask me to be his wife! haha...

Loves...

Oh yah! Not to forget, after CHIJMES we went to Bugis and we got a really good deal.

Yeah!! We are going Taiwan for our wedding photoshoot next year... This silly boy really really makes my day. No words can actually descirbe how I feel. I know you know how I feel right? hehe...

Thank you my love! :)

Bridal Moments

2010-06-10T16:54:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah! I am invited to this event. I am overjoyed :)

LOVES~

Happy Studying!

2010-06-09T15:20:00.004+08:00

He's always a great accompany. Deeply in my heart, he's always the best. No matter how I deny infront of him, he knows in his heart how I feel. We are just like the banana in pyjamas : are you thinking what I'm thinking B1, yes B2! haha. It feels like a drama but great mind thinks alike.

We are in preparation for this Sunday. This will be the best memory in my life! Someone who share the most goals together. Do you know that I love touring since I have gotten my licence? I want to ride my own bike up to Thailand to complete my motorcycle industry. Now, I found someone who is into touring that will bring me around the world just with motorcycle! (Although I still prefer riding up with my own hands rather than being a pillion) haha.

I have been thinking all these while, saw something that I am not able to know? Am I still thinking of him? missing him etc? I would not answer a definiate NO! but I'm becoming to hate or should I say dislike? A leopard will never change it's spot! I am happy that I have finally let it go. He hasn't change at all. Still the same that will go one big round and says he's not wrong at all! In my life, I have not met such screwed up guy before. I am serious. He can go around at my back and tell others my bad etc. I don't give a damn! I have no longer feel for him. As I says he will never found any true love and he will never understand what love is. For all of you who have eyes will see how he treated me.

I really thank God that he let me met such screwed up person and now I have finally found someone that I can rely on the rest of my life. Now, I treasure much more as before. Never take it for granted at all. Enjoying everything just me and him! I ever told him, if we are poor I don't mind eating rice with soya source. And I mean it. No doubt, all of you will say it's too naive and it's too fast. Do you know, I can choose others who is richer with great looks and not to be with him. But I didn't. I still can choose my lifetime partner (if I want to). But hey! I am not this kind of bitch ya! I have him is enough and he says I am the first and the last! Although you are not my first but you will be my last too :)

All along, I am searching for a true love. A love that is so true so real. Now I wouldn't say that I have really found it. haha! But it's somewhere there already. Still need time to see how long this will last. Of course, I will want it to last till the end of life!

I will not says that I am a perfect girlfriend. But in every commitment I will put in all my best effort. Offer a good hospitality to another.

The best thing ever in my life which is I found someone will share almost everything with me! Communication is never so easy. And yes, he respect woman! This is the most important point. haha! I did not need to change myself to suit him. He does not need either. We are practically the same kind in some ways or almost every ways.

Secure? Yes I am very secure now. I never feel insecure with him around. We love being with each other. Doing things together, Sharing things together! I know you feel the same too right? haha~

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The new ear-ring that I bought for him :)

He is preparing for his exams later...

AND...

AND...

AND...

HE IS SLEEPING!!! -.-''

Alright! I am gonna wake this silly boy up now :)

Amazing

2010-06-08T11:22:00.004+08:00

Weekends is fabulous! We are so damn busy running around and the whole tank of petrol just died on us last night! It only last for 3days? haha.

Anyway on Saturday, we did not manage to go to ducati showroom but we went LAB and Sim Lim Tower. Walk around and got 8GB thumbdrive! It's raining and we just went home after that.

On Friday, we went Jurong Point walk around before going in for petrol and out of the sudden he says that he wanna pierce his ear! He thought that there isn't any shop there doing piercing. But who knows! haha. I think this is God's will.

Tada~ see the red part! that is the new pierce.

I still feel guilty after the piercing! I know it's very pain. But this silly boy really willing do anything for me. I appreciate it alot! Oh yah! he loves it too :)

On a lazy Sunday, he went for a hair cut and guess what? Tattoo cut!!! I didn't know it turns out so nice after the cut. It suits him alot (thou is really very beng). haha. Finally the center parting gone and new stylo hairstyle arrived.

The most beng hairstyle!

After the hair cut, I helped to dye the hair to copper red! and it really suits him alot.

Not to forget, we actually did some shopping and gotten him a shirt! That will only be review next week. Wonder why all is without face? it's a mystery behind. haha. All of you will be shock if I were to post a BEFORE and AFTER picture.

I am real happy this few days! Although is tiring but everything is worthwhile. Someone will appreciate you and treasure what you did. Even minor things he remembered! His memory is damn good. Perhaps, just like the horoscope says!

I know he's happy with the change! We will keep it up alright. And we will JIA YOU together~

Great (:

2010-06-04T15:05:00.003+08:00

Last night went for coffee session @ west coast. Before that went West Coast Plaza for Sushi Tei. It's been so long since I ate Japanese food. Feeling so great and very full too.

I have never felt so great with him. We laugh, we tease, we joke! Laughing all whole night. I am beginning to like this lifestyle. No worries, just laugh :)

I have been wanting to do a makeover and yeah I have finally book it! It will be a whole new experience.

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Tonight going in GP Town and eat + pump petrol...

Saturday going to LAB in the morning and to Ducati Showroom and to IKEA!

Sunday going for some walk and change his hairstyle for next Sunday!

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I LOVE THIS WEEKEND! Filled with fun and excitment... haha~

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Do you know I found myself so true so relax. It is the first time I have this kind of feeling. Showing my true whole self without any stress! Do you know, it isn't easy to find someone that thinks alike and respect your decision, vice versa.

Thanks alot, I really do appreciate every single day with you :)

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Oh yah! I almost forget... This silly boy gave me a frog lighter (he knows that I love green) and guess what? The lighter scare me!!! Once i open the cap, it came "brup brup brup" non-stop. It makes my day, although it isn't an expensive gift. But it means alot to me :)

Better Life

2010-06-03T14:28:00.002+08:00

I have came to my mind and decided to let it go everything. I'm going to buy a box and keep every single things down to the memory lane. No more holding back, no more looking back, no more return!

He can move on, why not me?

I will make sure, I will live happier than him. You used to say that I am so fat, no ones will like me when they sees me? I will definitely prove you wrong!!! For very sure, I will find a much much more better man than you! Fyi, I have managed to slim down alot after the break up. All thanks to you that I have found back my confident level. No matter what it is, the past will be the past!

No more grudges!!!

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I LOVE MY LIFE TO THE MAX NOW! haha~

Getting Over...

2010-06-01T14:20:00.002+08:00

I ever thought that I will never get any better men after this failure of relationship. Not that I have gotten one. I am amazed that people around sees everything. Why will I say this? People around is telling me how they feel etc... Letting me know that it isn't a lost to let it go. What more surprise me is that, even his own blood ties sided me and cheer me up to move on without him.

From then, I have been picking up myself bits by bits. It isn't easy, but I am glad that I have so many great friends around. No doubt, my sister even sees everything and been hinting that he isn't good at all. I was naturally blind by love then. Come to think of it, I thought it was me who ain't a good gf but it isn't true. Not one who says that ; but many who says it. Now looking at a clearer vision, knowing that losing me is his lost!

When I am superly down, someone came in. Of course he isn't those that I've just met but we have met 2yrs ago when our friend brought him for meet up session. After sharing with him, he is 100% not CHK (Chee Hong Kia). haha! We shared equally same view, same prospect in life. Being with him never been a worry! He knows that I still can't totally forget about him yet without any quries he steps in and lend me a helping hand.

We are not in a relationship, neither we are just friends now. We just love each other accompany! He knows that I will not commit anything soon now. He gives me time, gives me space, gives me full support. You peeps might think that he haven't got me so that he is so nice to me? This don't worries me, I am quite sure that he is not this kind of bastard. But of course, who knows in the later part he changed? Oh well, we can't predict anything in future right. But is alright, time will prove everything. Like I say, we did not commit anything at the moment. So is still safe (:

Others might think that we are together when they met us on the street. We don't hold hand, we don't sweet talk. We are just like normal friends. haha! This is the funny part! One day, his friends saw us having dinner! His friends wife asked me, do you stop him from smoking? I reply : *blur* Err... then I shake head. She added : When she and her husband dating also never stop him from smoking but once they got married she will always nag at him to stop! haha. After the conversation, I gave her the damn blur look and laugh =.="

I am so blessed. He never fails to make me laugh like an idoit! He isn't that perfect but to me is already good enough. I don't know how long we will remain like this but still I treasure and appreciate every moments spent. In every ways, I believe he will makes a better guy for me.

I told him that if one day I have decided to move on, you will see the ring being removed. The biggest enemy is myself. I will need to overcome every steps with myself. It takes lots of time to gain back the confident I used to have. I must JIA YOU~

As of now, my eyes is bigger and takes things slowly. Seeing all the wonderful things around me and I will not blind by love anymore. I wouldn't want to waste another 2years.

I am enjoying every possiblity now (:

how can i forget?

2010-05-21T15:24:00.003+08:00

On 5th May 2010 night, we have a tiff! For the whole week, he didn't even give me a call, sms, msn etc... I really cannot take it when after the quarrel, why must I be always the one to say sorrie, sayang him? and this time.. is not my fault... He tell me, he want to sleep and says Im irriating so he hang the phone? After that he says that he is not wrong hanging up my phone? Okie, not going to details... But, I really think that he went to sleep! For god knows, I came across something which makes me so upset! Not that I don't trust him but don't tell me when guys after quarrel will go out with best friends and meet girl and play pool? Okie, that's not the issue. On top of that, I believe that he is enjoying that week of life... Go see drag race, go photography. While I cried every night, sober every night. I really think what the fuck it is...

Anyway, I am very chill now... Just don't see a point!

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Okie, I will not write in details what happened... Sorry for the messy rant!

No More

2010-05-15T15:31:00.002+08:00

God is really kind to me. Gotten a new job @ RS and the pay was so much more, benefit 101% better. Yes, this is the company I want to be in. A place that can give me what I want. I promise I will strive and accomplish my dream.

I have decided to let it go and have a brand new life. Everything will be different!

Having mixed feelings... But I know what exactly I want now. It's to focus on my new job, my new life! Can't wait for it... haha (:

I have lined up a couple of things to do daily to occupy my emptiness. This is the only way for me to keep looking forward. Although it is all by myself but I will treat myself better and kinder...

Meaningless

2010-05-12T12:49:00.002+08:00

Delicated to someone special :

You ever thought that someone behind is guiding you showing you the path ahead. The person may be out of curiosity and give you a helping hand. Things may not seems to be that good after sometime. You will ever think that, you can rely on that person and have a peaceful future. Happy moments is always short. I did treasure what we have in common and I hope that we may still continue the way as you promised. I will try to leave some time for your ownself as your scheduled is always packed with oversea calls or rather irregular shift work? I will not disturbed you as much either as I don't want you to feel that it is a burden. (If you have ever read this, you know who you are) haha! Don't feel guilty either, alright! You have been a great pal throughout the five years and yeah we are the best[x10000] of friends ever :)

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I have decided not to live a dragging life anymore! Hopefully, a newly enhanced life with a change on my image. Not getting anyone to be involved and truly I can make it my way soon!

Before everything start. I will need to clear up some mess and settle some minor issue over the weekends and it will start the following week! Hence, I will proved that Alyce Kathlyn will make it in time to come! JIA YOU~

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Work wise, I will still continue to lookout and not to forget my HR became my job agent! It have became a joke for me ever since. Because they want to find ways to kick me out and they helped to find direct HP job for me (including sending my resume to them personally). Don't you ever think they are "kind". It is because they are smart enough to kill two birds at one time. They can kicked me out + get two months of my salary. They won't be so dumb till kicked me out + pay me back two months of my salary! Holy shit... haha!

Of course, I am safe at the moment.

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It is a meaningless life now but I hope things around me will get better when my luck come. Yes! Bring me many many luck please.

Dad's 49days is coming to an end next week. It isn't the end for us anyway. Memories will always left in our heart and to us you are still alive. Dad, no matter how much I dislike things are I will still get along with every family members. To all, in life you only have one dad. Once your dad's passed on there isn't anymore. Do treasure every single little things in life and be thankful everyday that you're still breathing.

I Love You Dad Always :)

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Alright! I'm going back to work now... Lotsa pending cases awaiting for me. Haha!

Insomnia

2010-05-10T13:00:00.003+08:00

Having insomnia lately! I have too much things on my mind. Sighs!

Okie, on a lighter note...

I have disturbed someone till so damn badly. So sorry! I can't help it to continue disturbing you. haha~

I know it is such a small thing but can at least make me happier. But after that, it is back to square one :'(

Monday Bluesss...

Do you know?

2010-05-08T20:05:00.002+08:00

Alyce do you know that only family members supports you whenever you are down?
Do you know that all the friends you seldom meet cares about you too?

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Morning have a heart-to-heart chat with someone far away! Felt comfort after talking. Thanks! I'm awaiting for your return in 7weeks time.

Of course I must thanks another someone! Sorry for pestering you. haha!

Been hogging my lappy since morning till now! Never have I felt so lonely before. Trying to look further but I failed. Broke down to tears every single night.

Am just forcing myself to look forward to something else...

When things are all against you

2010-05-07T17:36:00.002+08:00

Do you know that today is the most bad day for me. Morning I went to pay visit to daddy. I spoke to him lots of things. Seeking him for advice and guidance.

After which I spent over an hour at the court. Guess What? The judge sided that idiot Filipino and turning a big circle that he don't believe me? What is this world going to? I mean how come those needed to be punished will never get a sentence while those who are right, no one supported them? This is ridiculous, what's with uphold the law of Singapore? Everything they talk are about money, money and money. I finally understand! In Singapore if you are rich and you killed someone, you will not be sentenced! This is totally unfair. Do you know what more he told me? He says that even if he were to bring him to court, he cannot promise that he won't hurt me and my family in the future. His advice is either you get a lawyer or you go and make good friend with that Filipino. What the fuck is this. Before that he even sided him that it is because he was unhappy with what I said? Does that means he got the right to threaten me and wanting to hurt me? Best of Best, the judge says we will only sentence him when he really DID IT! I was thinking, when he already does that, I have already been dead. What's more to say by then? I am really disappointed with the LAW OF SINGAPORE. I cried , I teared. It is so disheartening that even judge can't bring me justice. Do you know, even my managers sided him. I have a really tough time over there now. Why can't I get people to believe me? Do I really deserve all this shit?

Boyfriend had totally ignore me. He don't bother and don't care at all. He don't even make an effort to msn me. Why does everything have to fall on me! Why? When I wanted someone to console me, stand by me. Where is him? Is it so difficult to have a simple conversation from you?

I really can't take the blow anymore to a point that I really have the urge to end my life now. Yes, right now! Do you know how screwed up my life is now? What I do is right and what I said is the truth but why no one believed? No one even gave me courage to stand firm.

I thought after having desserts will make me feels better but what I taste is bitter. The bitter of life and the sour of soul. I really want to lead a happy life with my loved ones and support me during my ups and downs. But who will standby me? I really don't want to care anymore. The world feels so black, so dark that I have never felt before.

I don't know how many people will ever read this, but what I wanna say is : In this world, only MONEY can bring you the justice you wanted.

Wonder

2010-05-06T10:40:00.002+08:00

I have already think it through.. It is him who is at fault. I will not contact him further until he contacts me. What for I treated him so nicely yet he has taken me for granted.

None of you will ever know how I feel now. Never slept the whole night, once I close my eyes tears rolling down. My heart hurts.

For now, I will do what I wanted. I will not care how he feels at all. Because, he never feel how I feel either. Do you know, it isn't the first time. Does saying a word sorry from you so difficult? Didn't you were taught to apologize when you did something wrong? If you think that your dignity is so high up, go ahead. You will never know what is true love means!

Even my eyes is swallon. Having terrible headache. He won't even bother to care or message me. Wonderful. I hated you so much, but love cover up all the hate. How much I want to express my feelings to you, you think I'm nonsense. You have never want to listen to how I feel.

I am not being childish. If you are not happy reading this, get lost!

SCREWED UP!

2010-05-05T22:01:00.001+08:00

for the past one year plus, you have never hang my phone. you say that you are not sorry that you hang up my phone? For all the days you don't bring me out, I'm alright. i beg you to bring me out with your friends on saturday only, you're not willing at all. I cried so badly, my heart really hurts... and you say I'm irriating and you want to sleep! I know you are tired, but this is not the attitude. What am I to you? you will never feel sorry for what you did.

I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU SO MUCH! I COULD HAVE TREAT MYSELF BETTER...

Empty Promise!

2010-05-03T12:14:00.009+08:00

I am NOT happy now! Don't ever promise what you can't do. (say you won't drink, end up you drank? you say you will be the driver and you won't drink?) (say guys outing, girls go for what? end up ppl bring wife go?) What for I treat you so nice when you pissed me off. I freaking wait for you to be home somemore, and i never sleep well at all. I will not be that angry if you have told me earlier in the first place. Don't blame me if I do it back to you one day.

I have enough!! I am not in the mood today...

WHATEVER~

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I wanna go for Yatch Party! Now JinSen and Yinling is ONZ!!! Waiting for Ningxin... Hopefully can get an answer by this week.

Yeah! PARTY , PARTY , PARTY!!!

Brand New!

2010-04-11T20:52:00.003+08:00

I believe that many of us has lots of ups and downs in life. However, we still need to face the reality after some time.

Yes peeps! I am going to move on. Trying very hard and as much as possible I will really like to do a couple of things. Back to Basic and get my Class 3 license done! and and and... A Brand New Career to start my new life!

From then on, life will be better for sure. Having quite a numbers of plan in mind. Perhaps, I will need to set priority on to it first.

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On the previous post, I mention that I am changing? Yeah, theoretically I am. Practically I am also. Becoming some weirdo that don't like crowd and don't like facing large group of friends. Feel awkward somehow. Speaking lesser. Having the "blur-cock-what-so-ever" face. If you sees this, I am sorry my friends. Not that I have purposely make this happened but after such incidents I am still in the midst of recovering.

I can't deny that I am still very upset. I am just hiding over it. Being more of homely nowadays! Spending more time with Mummy especially.

Over the 49days, I am bound to eat only vegetables. NO MEAT at all. Don't question why but that is so. Today is only DAY9 and 40days to go. Yes, all the way till 21st May.

Birthday? This year is the worst ever birthday. How happy will I be when I have lost someone close?

I need something to brighten up my days... Sighs :'(

Goodbye

2010-04-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

Dad has no longer with us since 3rd April 2010 0146hrs. For my whole life, I will live with guilt and regret. Forgive my un-filial, dad.

Multiples of tears and who can understand? None.

A very strong dad I have. Memories will be with me forever.

DADDY I MISS YOU!

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I am changing! Changing to someone that isn't Alyce anymore. It is so tough for me to move on... Sorry.

Long.

2010-03-31T11:39:00.003+08:00

It will be a long post, i believe.

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Birthday approaching in less than a month time. Having full of thoughts of "Wants" and "Don't Want"! haha. I presume that the month of April will be full of surprises and excitement. However, I just don't see it coming any sooner!

Firstly, I'm going to resign very soon as I cannot stand my managers anymore.

In short, who can ever torlerate their bosses cover up the wrong and let the victim dead! Even after knowing the truth, they never resolves the issue... instead they cover for his god damn wrong mistakes!

Secondly, My 22nd! I have post that I want something romantic this year? Yes, I want a bouquet of flowers, presents and cake and a sweet dinner from my beloved. Yet I'm dreaming again!

A very good buddy of mine remembered my birthday yearly (on top of my family members) and one fine day which is on my 20th, he have planned to suprise me by sending flowers to my office. Although it is not from my lover, I am still very touched by the move. And yah, the very first person who gaves me a bouquet too! After two years, I still wanna says thank you to my great buddy :)

Thirdly, my AWS! For all of you know that my AWS only falls on the April. Yes, they follow the financial year. This year I have made a promise to myself to use it wisely and save!

Here I have draft out a "WANTs" list:

- Class 3 (I am going to dump money into this for sure)
- Debts (Going to clear as much as possible)
- SAVE!!

AND...

The "DON'T WANT" (Not that I don't want, but maybe when my cash allows) list:

- Leovince GP Style Exhaust (Replacement of my "big-big hole" orginial exhaust)
- Right Mirror (Replacement of my look alike "raindrops" mirror)
- Mont Blanc Money Clip Wallet with 8-12 holders (Soon my current wallet going to say goodbye)

Oh well, I don't hestitate to recieve all these for my birthday! haha. Darling, you know what to do right? Yah, dreaming again =.="

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Been browsing throught blogs-to-blogs. Found out that Sliver got a red R15! At the very first look at Darling's house carpark - blue R15, it looks horrible. Should I says is the owner make it that worst. Anyway, she post her new ride on her blog and I have been electrify! It looks great and at a moment I was thinking, if there is this kind of bikes during my Class 2b time... I think I will buy it too!

Actually, I am very glad that she is kind enough to share lots of her life stories in her blog. In another way, some people don't look it that way! (I am not siding anyone) But seriously I do understand from her point of view and where she's coming from. I may not know her for very long but as a women i believe that she isn't that evil or bad or whatsoever which you can name of!

Anyway, you go Girl! UpsSs :)

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On a lighter note, today offically marks my 730days (2years) in this freaking company.

Remember of the past, Happy Birthday, J! Wishing you well in overall...

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Okie, I shall stop here and continue working! Out of a sudden, I have so many work came in...

Have a good day, folks!

Back Home!

2010-03-21T23:50:00.001+08:00

Spent my longest week with darling together! I'm so used to it already seeing him every morning. But now I'm back to my home. So bored! Sighs... I just love spending time together. Hope there will be more chance to come.

Nothing major unhappiness occur! Which is good. Haha! Anyway, I miss darling already...

Okie! I going sleep tight tonight on my bed, tomorrow still gotta wake up early for work. Good night, folks :)

Zombies

2010-03-12T02:42:00.000+08:00

I'm back from the Zombies land again. This time went Yishun Chambers! The computer is much more better than IRC! Never have we get log out during the 4hrs play. Yes we are indeed hook till this game and even want to play from 12midnight to 8am... Haha! I don't know can tahan anot!

As for now, I cannot take it already, tomorrow still need to work! Haha... Good night everybody :)

Hectic!

2010-03-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

Just back from IRC lan shop after 4hours of L4D2! I think I must admit that I'm no longer that young! Hahaha... It is so tiring can! And now I felt headache after playing... Anyway the computers at there is so lousy! Hang like nobody business, worst than chambers! I think Game Heaven still the best.

I enjoy myself and we completed 2 maps! Okie, time to sleep! Good night, folks :)

Feel Loved!

2010-03-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

So fast weekends have come to an end and Monday is coming! Feels that time is going faster and faster! Perhaps, the older you get the time passes faster!

Just a little update. Today went out with darling to see fishes and corals. It's been so long since we went round Singapore for fishes! Feels great and feels loved! Just this little things can make me feel so happy. Spending time together doing such simple things makes me feel even more worth it than going out just for shopping! Anyway, I just love him bringing me out for quality time together. Not just always with friends and friends. I never like it that much though...

Met Eddie and Shelin at dam to chill and we saw his friends... Hahaha! Yes, I being hook to Left 4 Dead 2! So does darling. We gonna plan to have more such Lan Session the following week! Hahaha... Of cos this time I do not hope to seat seperated from darling.

Just feels that today is the most happier days among all. The sudden hug from behind warms my heart!

I think nowadays using my  to blog is ever easier! Haha. I shall blog more often then. Good night, folks! Tomorrow will be Monday Blues...

Envy...

2010-03-07T03:37:00.000+08:00

Just back from movie, Alice in Wonderland 3D.. Nice show and finally I got the bottle that I longed for. Anyway, I'm blogging through phone and is the first time. Not sure how it will turn out like. After movie, went to play LAN. Of course I don't really like it as I do not know how to play but luckily Shelin teach me. Anyway, I was rather tired and just don't like being dump at one side playing and darling over the other side. Feels like playing alone and never felt good at all. Just so sucky!

Somehow I am very envy about Shelin and Eddie. She can stay over at his place and I believe that Eddie bought a necklace for her. The necklace I ever told darling that is nice and he will never buy me such gifts ever from jewllery shop. Only silly me will purchase these kind of things and do romantic stuffs to him. I really don't know.. Really very envy that their relationship is so much peaceful than mine. Can really see they are so loving, even quarrel Eddie will always give in. What about mine? I believe from the start till now, he never ever apologized to me before. All along is me who said sorry. Sighs! I don't know what to do either...

What I hope is that I can have a romantic darling... Don't always I'm the one who give suprises and such. At least he can understand my feeling and treat me nicer and think from my point of view... I like someone who always make me laugh even though I'm being "suan"! Just want some laughter everyday... Haha!

Okie, I know it is impossible! Just let me dream on then... Time for lala-land and let me dreammm! Good night, folks!

Breathless

2010-03-03T10:25:00.003+08:00

Feeling so breathless with everything! Even work don't give me peace. What I want to do can never be done. The things I told you, you'll never remember. It's changing! We are having less and less quality time together as compared. I have never like that change. I ought to spend the lazy evening with you after work and even weekends but seems like things ain't going the way.

I don't feel the care at all. Why everytime I have planned something just for the two of us and something just destroy our plan. Of course you can choose me before your friend! But you did not. It's not the first time. Not that I did not spoke to you about this before, but you never realize the important. I'm feeling tired and upset. Holding back tears in the office while typing this sucks! Everytime I have give in and take a step back, asking you to accompany me the following day since you choose me before your friend that day. You hesitate and never answer!

Sometimes when you can't do it, don't promise me. I'll never like it. Alright after this rant, I will leave it to a full stop. If you have saw it, be it you like it anot it's still my way of destressing!

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Okie, my birthday is coming! Of course, this year I want what I didn't get last year. It's not about greedy or whatsoever. I did not have a birthday cake, a proper love and care for my 21st. This year, I want everything! I want something romantic... a bunch of pink purple rose and tuilps! a birthday cake and a present... I guess, it will only be a dream that never come true. Anyway, I can see it won't be coming.

Well, family and friends are still the best and understanding creatures!

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Alright, breathe back and hold-on my tears! Continue the rest of the day... Alyce, JIA YOU!!!

Never Have I Been so Dread Down...

2010-01-31T03:44:00.002+08:00

Ignore my poor grammar, just something that can relief from my tears and is to blog all my sorrows out. I have no one to listen to what I am mumbling at this hour, just bear with me...

You should know what we have promised. What should be taken out as a topic and what's over it's over. Never have I blame you brought that topic out, naturally if you repeat and repeat again and saying my fault but you're right, of course I will get irritated. I knew that I have talk rudely but that is not on purpose. Just want to make you a little happy. Rush back and just wanna have a few words with you before you goes up. Just want to pass you the present that I have bought. Because I thought when you see it, you will not be that moodless. Never have you willing to open and see what it is, you still turn me down saying that the mood now is not suitable for opening this present. Do you know how upset when this kind of words is being said out from your mouth. I have never do such silly stuffs. During halfway of the dinner, I act that I wanna go to the Ladies. But I ran all the way down to get the present. I know he will says is a waste of money. But that suppose to be he's Valentine's present. Just because I don't want him to be unhappy, I decided to give him that present first.

Although the present was kind of same as last year, but it was not the correct size and scratches is all over. Just wanna get a new one so that you could wear it on the number forth. Say I am nonsense, excuses whatsoever... I don't care! Friends around me told me that since I choose this path, accept it and treat him nicely. I have never want any in return but can you just show a little nicer to me. If I can choose to have my birthday wish this year, all I want is you who will treat me nicer. You know that I dislike you talking rudely to me. Respect me as your partner as I respect you. The past you can ever treat your ex gf so nice, I don't compare but at least treat me just a little nicer. just a little will do. show me that you care about me, show me that you will give me a hug and calm me down when i'm down. ain't this suppose to be a guy should do?

Yes, he have got his reasons for not wanting to open the present but me also would like him to feel for me. I accpet his reasons, doesn't mean what he said and does is totally right. So what the present is being open tomorrow with a happy mood. Guess that kind of mood is already lost. That very kind of first saw the present, first holding it, first open it, first wearing it... all gone! For all my days, I have been wanting someone to be happy before me. If I am sad, but you are sad too, I will make sure to make you feel better and make you smile first. I have never care if I am sad or what. Because the moment I see you are smiling or happy. I am happy! At least I made someone else smile even though im still feeling upset. To all my true and best friends, my beloved ones should know this is my style. I put YOU as first and putting ME at last.

People have been saying that I am stupid, I make myself in this suffer state. How I want to prove them wrong. How I want to carry on and show that it works. I have been trying all my best. my very best. Putting in all efforts for only one reason... I love you and I mean it.

Ultimate Unlucky!

2010-01-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

What more can I say? I am just so so so unlucky. Met an accident last Friday on the way to work. I am not going to elaborate further. But what I can say that, it is not totally my fault! Some arsehole who don't know how to drive swerve out when i am just beside and my poor DRZ mirror hit its mirror and my DRZ fall and hit the car on the left! Best part, I haven't even got the chance to scold or able to think properly... that fellow check its mirror nothing wrong and off they go! How ironic it is. One word to describe, UNLUCKY...

Total damage I would presume is about bloody "FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFITY DOLLARS".

By right, tomorrow I am going down with darling to the car shop. But his eyes got infected and so last mintue that I have to get my best buddy to go with me. I pray hard that she will be able to wake up tmr... I really hope that tomorrow will be a good day and I will not be the carrot that let the car shop chop!

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Having alittle thoughts... If I am gone the next day or even now or even the future, I hope that I can enjoy every single bits of sad, happy, joy and sorrows moments. At least, at the very last I know I have not waste my entire life.

Feeling quite upset now. Not sure why! But hope that after talking to my five years of good friends will help a little... Sighs! =.=

New Year Resolution...

2010-01-16T19:09:00.003+08:00

Well this 2010 what else can I say... the start was not terrific at all!

I'm having some goals to accomplish this year! Which I really hope that I can do it.

Here's the list:

- Change of job
- Jog everyday
- Class 3
- Diploma in Law

I am not greedy. So just this few resolution will do. God please light me to the path! I hope that I can save more in order I can accomplish my class 3 and studies.

Wish me luck, folks!

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Darling is in Thailand since Monday for two weeks. Although it is not the first time he left me so long for work but still I am not happy at all that he isn't by my side. Everyday facing the webcam just to listen to his voice and see him at the screen once a day. If you all know how does it feels, it is really so sucks! But what to do... I still have to accept it! Sighs...

Just Day 3

2010-01-04T02:42:00.002+08:00

It's only day 3 of the starting and its getting to my nerves. I have never been so mad, so upset before. Teared for an hour but all I want is just the comfort from you. As usual, you will never bother. For what-so-ever reason, I'm just so pissed off!

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Tomorrow will be first day of the working year. Hope everything will be smoothly the year ahead. Not to mention, CNY is coming soon in a month time! Yippie :)

Nothing for me to blog, back from holiday but not a joyful want. Planning for more holiday this year, hopefully will be able to go somewhere far far away!

Good Night, folks!

Late Night

2009-12-17T02:10:00.001+08:00

At this moment I am still at darling's place. Awaiting for him to be awake can really kill.. haha!

Anyway, just some random thoughts...

Firstly, I NEVER say HP laptop is very very good.
Secondly, I swear I DID say compare Compaq to HP obviously HP is much better. (If you use laptop you should know, as compare to Acer all those lousy brand HP is much of a better choice. And stupid also know that Toshiba, Fujistu, Mac is much more better!)
Thirdly, I will never ever offer or advice any people anymore.
Fourthly, I apologized that I did not check properly on the EPP scheme. My mistake.
Lastly, NEVER EVER PUT YOUR WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!!

I'm kinda pissed with this thingy. But I'm glad that darling told me. Next time no more being the good person.

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Darling is rich, he bought his PENTEX already!! Yes, I want to have one too. haha! This few weeks I'm rather "Suay"... After "Lao Sai", kanna PIG FEET (due to going my darling huiying chalet). Till now the itchiness still unbareable. I need to apply the cream then it will stop the itch a while and then back again.

7 MORE DAYS and I will say goodbye to work and hello to work on next year! I am very very looking forward to it. Counting down to 11 more days to Batam with darling! Loving him more and more each day... Although everytime he says me, I will feel alittle unhappy sometimes. However, I know that he still loves me alot :)

Blessed.

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Okie... Time to wake darling up. I have been waiting for nearly two hours!!

Good night folks!

Last Month Of The Year!

2009-12-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

It's already December, which means less than 1 month... Year 2010 will arrive! Okie, time to clear my anunal leaves and hitch on a getaway with darling.

Last year we went to batam and is quite a boring want but this year we are going to a different side of batam. We are going to have sea sports and lotsa fun, i believe. Just can't wait to the day arrive. I will be on leave after X'mas till 4Jan'10. I might be bringing some leave over to Jan'10 if not will be clearing before X'mas. Now is only start of the week and I'm already so looking forward to the getaway with darling. haha!

Currently at work and is waiting for work to end in an hour time. Going to BPP with darling to have dinner and home to rest... Awaiting for weekends already ;)

我把你当宝, 你把我当草

2009-11-20T22:41:00.003+08:00

Congrats, you made it and you are at Level 99.

I'm fucking upset, fucking pissed. Ever since you are back, I am like talking to a wall. You said I'm nonsense? What am I to you? just to satisfy your needs, sex toys? What I wanted was just a hug. Even if you go Geylang and paid for sex, aftermath they even get to cruddle. Just because you are late meeting your friends, you get so impatient and says I'm nonsense? Yes, your friends is more important than giving me a hug. I realized that you have never apologised to me over these 1 year. I'm the one who always says sorry just don't want you to get mad. Always pointing me at fault but not you. I wonder how have I turn to be so genorous and kind for giving in you.

I am poundering now... you are having so much hobbies and now you even want a DSLR for another hobby? how much time do you have for all your hobbies and how much time do you have for me? can't you ever spare a thought for me. I am a girl and needs care and love too.

Ask you 1 question need ask 5times or more, you not tired I also tired ah... Is you who makes me keep asking and yet you don't want to answer. This makes you irriated and says I'm naggy? look who force me to ask and ask. If you bother to answer, I will not repeat myself.

What I want was never so difficult.

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I cried painfully while riding back just now. It's so hurt that my tears never stops. I even think of just bang the car and hope I die, if only that is so easy.

Ask you to reach the destination, give me a call or sms. Nothing was done. You really treat me like grass. A grass that you can step on.

Until now, my tears flows down aimlessly. Ultimate pain!

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SCREW EVERYONE ; SCREW THE WORLD!

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No comments is needed for this entry.

Realizing

2009-11-18T11:53:00.001+08:00

Do you ever realize that humans always said that they are right in certain ways? To the extend when some even says that they’re everything perfect? Haha. Yes, there is such human around, especially in the office. There is this little boy who came to my department for attachment. Just because of he wants attention, good grades, etc. He is actually trying to be nice to one of my colleague and boot-licking her. It’s disgusting. On top of that, he tries to be nice to our group of sisters and twisted every of our words and deliver to my colleague. He wants us to quarrel among ourselves (which is impossible) and he thinks that his plan will work. How naïve and childish he is. This makes me laugh when I have figured out what he is trying to do during these few weeks in the office. For once, I’m practically very angry about this issue. However, I have told myself that no matter what he’s going to say or does, no one will actually believe his childish act. So, still trying to make us fall apart? TRY HARDER!!

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I’m blogging this at work now. Recently, things around is changing in a faster pace. Darling came back from Italy last Saturday. Just few days before he arrived, I have been enjoying myself real hard with my friends. It’s been a long time that I have really spent joyfully and having a good catch-up with them. Knowing that how much had I lost them. Just a few days and I realize that freedom is what I’m lack of now. The freedom to spend, to enjoy, to shop etc. with my girlfriends. I am glad and contented that at least I do have the chance of having such occasion with them. Hopefully, there will be more to come :)

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Life has been the same as usual. Just a boring city over here, nothing much I can do or slack. There are lots of things I would want to do now but money is restricting my instinct, as ever. Trying to search for a better exit, but that thought can only be in next year.

In 2010, there will be more things to accomplish and more responsibility, which means additional stress level ahead.

Christmas is round the corner, hopefully darling and I will have a great getaway this year end. FYI, we should be flying to Thailand. Just because of one jerk in his office, he has to change his schedule to next year.

Anyway, I just want to get out of this country with darling…

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Darling has a wish that is to migrate to USA. Two to three years down the road, he will opt to go there for work with his current employer. I am glad that at least he has the plan for his future. Not to mention, he will be bringing me over as well and yes from then on we will be out of this city. Haha!

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Okie, time to go back to work.
Goodbye folks, ciaoz!

again...

2009-11-05T00:11:00.004+08:00

Back from T3 again... this time round 10days to Italy!!! I know is not long but still I hate it... What more even surprise was after he comes back most probably will be going Thailand in 2weeks time. The date is still not confirm but I guess this time round I might be able to follow him to Thailand. Just in time to clear my annual leave as well.

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Just a little update :

Last Sunday went to get Siti Birthday present at lasenza!!! am glad that she loves the things we bought for her. I get lots of things from lasenza as well... haha. Went to get darling 2 long seleves shirt for this Italy trip. Bought Levis and Dockers. The Levis I bought the same design as darling for myself. haha! Went M)phosis to get my slippers... and my damage is alot!!! Now at office, everyday instant porridge and instant noodles.

Any kind soul out there would like to sponsor my lunch? hehe ;p

This week pratically was sucks! Many nonsense going on in the office. Monday was freaking BLUE and Tuesday was freaking RED! Was so pissed off with someone till I nearly slam my laptop to the floor.

Oh well, it's coming to weekend again. Hopefully things might be better tomorrow!

Good night folks :)

Sweet

2009-10-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

Been freaking busy this 2 weeks... Went Turf City today but it rain and so no buggy session =.='' after which headed to Giant and get some stuffs to make raspberry cheese pie for darling. We went to Lim Chu Kang Coral Fish Farm, it's so great that they are having promotion and is 20% off! Bought 3fishes and 1prawn... Just nearby, there's this Goat Farm which I used to go when I was rather young then... and I pester darling to drop by that place to get my favourite Goat Milk ever! hehe... I'm so happy can!! Got 5 small bottles of Goat milk and back home sweet home... Reached darling house, he's unpacking his fishes while I'm doing the cheezy pie for him! I'm lucky enough that it still taste not bad and bought some home for mom and sis for testing tomorrow morning. Hopefully, they will like it! haha..

Oh yes, darling is back yesterday afternoon! Hooray... guess what? darling treat me so damn good can. He bought me lots of stuffs and I felt rather pampered by him. The feeling is superb! Nothing beats my mood yesterday. Am overjoyed and filled with lotsa loves... haha!

Finally darling is back! Of cos I do miss him but thinking that he is leaving 9days later makes me upset again... This time round, he's going Italy... Yes, ITALY! The timing is upside down can... when I sleep, he's working. When he's working, I'm sleeping. Fantastic! I wonder how can we have our webcam session... By webcamming our conversation is already very short and if there's total no communication how would it be? Sighs...

Okie, time to get some rest now!

Good night, folks :)

Gone!

2009-10-12T02:23:00.001+08:00

Just came home from T3. Darling just board the flight to Osaka... Sighs! 2weeks of loneliness. The feeling sucks whenever he's going overseas, be it 3days or 3weeks or 3months. I just hate the feeling of being left alone. Oh well, I guess this 2weeks I can be a good girl staying at home and save money! haha. Superb broke now, just paid off my insurance. Hope darling will come back with all my tibits :P

Am missing him already :(

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Just an short update! Sis just back from honeymoon, Taiwan! She bought me a cute little bag and my favorite IRON EGGS! Oh yeah... I love my sis so much can :)

Here's some of the pictures during her wedding!

Hello Kitty~

There goes her Singlehood and became Mrs Chua!

She DIY herself! Looks very very nice :)

View from their suite.

My Nails...

Nice right! hehe.

You seldom will see me cam-whoring like this...

I guess, is time for me to change my hairstyle to curly fries! haha.

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Oh I nearly forget... When I'm on the way coming back home, I went to the petrol kiosk for top up. Guess what? There is this Chinese, Ah Lian or Malay, Mina (I can't really see properly as she is wearing a helmet... The skin was fair but face looks malay?) she is also riding DRZ! During payment, I stood behind her and I have already sense something not right. She look at me like one kind and I ignore by not having any eye contact with her. She purposely wait for me at her bike. After I make my payment and I slowed down my pace and wear my helmet slowly. She waited! When I start my bike, she also start hers. I have try my best to ignore her as I don't have any interest on her and on her DRZ. Oh! You know what? When I wanna turn out of the road, she just cut like I'm invincible and true enough, she wanna show me her STOCK DRZ POWER by challenging her pick up.

Sighs! I don't know what's wrong with these riders nowadays. Girl see Girl ride bike also want to challenge?! Cannot make it man... I was thinking, is there a need to show off that you are faster than me? At that point of time I'm thinking, don't let me see you with my K6. I have a sudden thought that if I am riding my K6 just now instead of DRZ, things might be very different! haha...

Oh well, such a nonsense rider that throw all the lady riders face! Yes, I'm laughing my arse off... wahahaha~

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Time to sleep! Good night, folks :)

busy

2009-10-03T00:12:00.003+08:00

This few days been very busy for me as i'm preparing sis wedding!! it's freaking TODAY and yet i'm still not asleep yet... just finish editing sis thingy! sighs... so busy!!!

On top of that, darling went cruise already for his company retreat. Fyi, there is no reception on the cruise!! how lousy it is... and this is the first time without any point of contact with darling! shucks, i hate that feeling. darling is coming back this sunday! sighs, busy weekend... more busier than work.

Okie, time to get some rest! gonna wake up by 5am later... good night folks :)

Yawnnzz

2009-09-29T08:23:00.003+08:00

It's Tuesday already... 4more days to sister wedding! 3more days to darling company trip and 1more day of work... haha...

Woke up today feeling very sleepy! moodless to work as usual perhaps it's because i'm going on leave soon... darling says that his japan trip is around 12oct-23oct (TBC) so boring lah! Sighs.. going to do my bikey insurance soon :(

Hopefully, today will end quickly!!

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Off to work~

Weekends are over

2009-09-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

The weekends are over... it's so damn fast! haha. Anyway, life as usual. Nothing much nowadays. Today went over to bridal shop to test clothes for sister wedding. I will never recommend any of you go the "Golden Horse Bridal Shop". All of them is one kind... Even my mom dislike them! I believe it's cheap that's why there's so many couples want them to do for their wedding. It's lousy anyway.

After which, went over to Bottle Tree with darling to take a look on the buggy track! small and there only allow electric buggy... Not a very nice place compare to Turf City. Stay there for 30mins and off we go to Fish Farm... went to Paya Lebar then to Pasir Ris then back to Yishun. End up we got our fishes at Yishun! haha... The weather is rather humid, I thought it will be a rainy Sunday however it turns to be a sunny Sunday =.=''

Oh ya, sister wedding is coming this Saturday! Hopefully, I will be able to get some income that day. Super broke as this month need to renew my insurance for DRZ. haha...

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Look, I did update my blog! haha :P

Shall update soon again...

Ciaoz!

Finally Edit-ed DONE!

2009-09-26T04:41:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah! I know I have not been updating lately. I am rather busy with work etc.

I have just finish changing my blog skin and now is freaking 0441hrs.

I shall update again tomorrow! haha.

Good night, folks! ciaoz :)

Soon over!

2009-07-29T00:19:00.003+08:00

My MC days is going to end tomorrow. Happy moments is always fast but it still feels terrible when it comes to boredom. haha! Kind of glad to go back to work soon. Missing all the colleagues!

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Leg is getting better each day. But still bleeding due to stitches being removed. Painful experience. Getting myself a better mesh jacket and new helmet soon! But i guess i need to save up for insurance. haha.

Bought new clothes today. Superb overjoyed. $200 gone! 4 tops, 2 bottoms, 1 dress! It's very very nice. I think it's time for me really dress up and looks nice whenever i'm out! Getting more vain each day. haha.

Okie... time to sleep! Good night folks :)

Crashed.

2009-07-13T02:14:00.006+08:00

Took leave on the 8th... and i crashed at turn 6 :(

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Hospitalized for 3days and now i'm resting at home. Right knee suffer 20cents coin hole and abrasion over the stomach and left knee. Sighs!

Luckily, bike damage not much...

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Let the pictures speaks...

The damage of my exhaust :'(

After waxing, the scratches is gone :)

Mirrors scratch and stain with TAR!!!

The "U" lever...

Right footpeg gone...

Nicest slider with PG sands and grass!

The aftermath...

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Painful days at SGH :'(

After operation...

Middle of the night, inserting antibiotic...

My lovely stomach...

The "PIG" right knee...

Needles everywhere!!!

MY BABY :)

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I really thanks my dear for understanding me and dote me like a kid. Although i know that i'm pretty bad towards him... haha! I guess without my dear, i will be so helpless. He is so much of great help these few days and i feel that he really loves me alot alot!

Love you dear. Muacks :*

Moved!

2009-07-02T22:10:00.004+08:00

Today, is the day i'm being moved back to ATPA. I can't believe the nonsense is happening around my office. They took a few of us out to ATPA and from ATPA they took some of them to HBL. What a joke! I can't believe it. It seems like we have got nothing better to do just to shift ourselves to the other building. If you were to split us to two teams, i understand. But now you split us and you asked other team to join in. haha!

Well, i'm happy. I get to see all my old colleagues over there and all the friendy cleaners! I don't know how long i will be sitting there. Hope that H1N1 goes off quickly. If not i'm going work from home... and i don't think they are going to pay my phone bills if i'm ask to work from home. Hmmm... what more can i say? Sighs. Bullshit rules.

Lets pray hard it won't go till that extend.

Nail-ed.

2009-06-26T00:47:00.003+08:00

This morning woke up and realized that my tyre got nail-ed! That's very bad... During lunch time, went to bikeshop and replace a new pair of tyres! It's so expensive... sighs!

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Went over to dear house, heard that dear's brother is coming back tomorrow morning. Which means Yeti is coming back too! haha... Actually quite happy about it as finally they are back after these three weeks at Brunei! Those tough training can't kill them but i guess it made them stronger. Oh yeah!

Okie, time to sleep! Getting quite tired already... Ciaoz!

Catch Up.

2009-06-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

It's been years since i last saw my church mates! oh yes, i'm happy. haha...

God, are you shinning this path to me? Asking me to head back to S-word? i hope so...

Thanks God!

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Continue to keep me in prayers...

White Helmets.

2009-06-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

I'm so bad luck nowadays... This morning just got stop by ROV at the same place i'm being stop by a TP with my DRZ. This time round, 70bucks flying away. I'm so moody today and while going home i met lots of idoits driver and one BMW nearly bang me. What a bad day.

Somehow have conflicts with dear again. Well, i'm pissed and he did not want to accompany me after work. Sometime i am thinking that why i can put down everything and accompany him when he needs me. Why he can't do that to me when i need him? I agreed that i'm being possessive over this but i am just tired that why everytime it must be me first but not him. He says he can't be bothered and he put on his msn : DISAPPOINTED YET AGAIN! Looks who is being disappointed. It's me not you!

I really have enough of it.

This is just not my day...

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I miss Yeti, he will talk to me every weekends when he book out and i can tell him all my unhappiness for the week. He will always listen to my nonsense. haha! I wonder how is he at Brunei now. Still surviving? Hopefully ya...

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I wanna put myself from "PEOPLE-CENTERED" to "GOD-CENTERED"... It will be a long journey but i will try.

Thanks God (:

Kulai Night!

2009-06-13T03:27:00.002+08:00

Just back home from Kulai and it's raining while returning. Went there have "dim sum". haha! It's been so long since i been there. Felt a little happy about it.

On the way to meet Eric, i lost my way so i find one area to wait for dear and Eric to come. He's angry with me as i went lost. Anyway, i can see that he is not happy that i ride my K6. Basically, everyone see me riding class2 bike will look at me and i'm already get used to it. There's few occasion that i over took dear as i wanna try the speed. The wind is too strong and i'm not armed with protective gear as such i didn't manage to get the speed i want. I only went merely like 200km/h? haha! Still got 99km/h to hit my target... One day i'm gonna get my bike for touring so i will be able to try in the morning rather than the night. I'm abit scare as my eyes can't really see clearly at night and it's very dark.

Men's ego is never ending. Sighs! So what i ride bigger and faster bike than you? It means NOTHING but just my interest of riding a 1000cc. I hope he get this clear. I don't want him to feel that i purposely make him lose his face to other people.

I'm not sure what more can i do... Felt kinda lost...

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Time to sleep, night!

Disgusting.

2009-06-10T02:17:00.002+08:00

Something not good happened. I will not explain further as i have freaking no interest and i feel so disgusting. Perhaps this is the last time. Everyone changes, so does my friend. After some incident, i don't blame my friend but i still think that just leave a distance from this fellow will just save me from deep shit. I guess, next time i really need to be very cautious. It's not everyone that i can trust and i won't be the stupid one either. Luckily, i know my stand.

After the incident, i realize that i love my dear. Seriously, he don't treat me very well but come to think of it... He is really very good as compare to the others. Although standards is made my humans and not everyone is perfect. I can't expect much from him and i guess at least with him, i'm safe and secure. Thanks dear, i really do appreciate you all these while despite all those quarrels and fights. You are always the someone that stood by me all the time. *muacks*

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God, today i have learn something. Something that will made me remember that, nothing comes with free lunch. The evil Satan gave me a test just now and i managed to push it away. Thank you Lord. Amen*

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It's late and i'm turning in soon. This post is rather confused, sorry folks. It's just some thoughts and rants.

Good night!

Bored...

2009-06-08T16:00:00.000+08:00

Yah, i'm so freaking bored at this hour. I'm at work and i can't help blogging now, i'm too bored already! Been so bored ever since i step into office. haha! Surfing net the whole morning till now. Came across this artist-cx, read his blog to kill time. Oh yes, this is how bored i am.

Playing facebook, SBF, blogs now became part of my job. I'm so tired today! Whole body aching, must be use too must force washing my bike. haha.

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Ate fried rice for breakfast+lunch around 11plus. I'm a little hungry now yet i have no idea what to eat. Basically, i'm too lazy to move around today. Monday blues :(

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Less than 2hours time, i will be knocking off. haha! Still thinking of meeting dear or go home since i'm so tired. Oh well, shall see how it goes later!

Okie, lets endure a few hours more... tata!

Shag!

2009-06-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

It's now past midnight and is already Monday =.=

Today woke up, prepare then went to turf city to fetch dear as he did not rode his bike over there. Had lunch together and went back to dear's house. Once we reach, we quickly dump our stuffs at home and rush down to service and clean our bikes.

Dear fix his SPRINT damper today and change engine oil for DRZ while i'm washing my bike. haha! Wonderful Sunday and a fruitful weekend. Went dinner with Desmond, Wendy and Eric at Ang Mo Kio Hub, Pepper Lunch. The most expensive meals i have for the week. After which, we head to the "dam" boring place again as Eric wants to go there. Desmond and Wendy went to bugis as it's Wendy's payday and they joined us much later. That explains why i'm still awake now. haha! Finally got the chance to ride my DRZ. I guess i shall ride it more often. I'm planning to ride it every Friday since dear is riding his K7 on every Friday. Hmmm still deciding...

Okie, below is the pictures that i took after washing my bike!

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On Progress...

So busy!!!

Halfway through...

Finally, dear's SPRINT damper! *blink blink*

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My shinning shinning exhaust...

Shine till can see my face :P

The hard work after using this... haha!

My love (:

After oil change...

Our "barang barang".

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Time to sleep... Good night, folks!

Saturday!

2009-06-06T23:57:00.001+08:00

Back from dinner. Feeling quite awkward for the entire dinner, a little bit funny though. Anyway, i'm not the one getting married. haha! I just go there and eat. Yah, eat until so bloated till i wanna puke now.

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Nothing much today. Woke up and prepare to meet dear over his place for lunch and he's so kind that send me over to Paramount Hotel which is at Parkway! Felt that he's rather good to me this few days and he makes me felt so glad. He waited for me finish my dinner and go coffee with Desmond then send me home. Thanks dear!

Dear went to meet Edmund at the "dam" boring place now for his new "sideline" job. haha!

I shall continue my gaming session and wait for dear to be home. ciaoz!

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Below is the pictures that i took today, enjoy =)

Hope you enjoy the cam-whoring of Alyce Kathlyn! haha :P

At this hour...

2009-06-06T04:02:00.001+08:00

Yup, I am still awake. Previous post was saying i'm tired and going to rest. But i went to meet bestie Shelin to take back my membership card. Yes, in the middle of the night. Alone at Mandai, no cars nothing and traffic light don't seems to turn red. The journey is windy and cold. haha!

Head to the "dam" boring place and yah finally saw the girl that dear and some of my friends dislike her. I truly understood why they dislike her. The moment i reach and listen the way she talk, i'm rather turn off. Luckily, Marcus and Jie Xuan is there. They walk over and have a chat with me. Thank god they save me from the boring side. I totally cannot blend in with them. The people from the forum isn't of any good but rubbish and nonsense. Sorry to say that, this is how i feel. Or should i say, it is not my type! haha.

Enough of my rants. I shall share more with dear tomorrow.

This time round, i'm really going to KO!

So freaking exhausted. ciaoz!

Friday nightout!

2009-06-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

This is my sprocket and chain! Cool (:

The POWER Boon Lay Nasi Lemak! Not too bad, but the chili is hot. This big plate cost only $3.50!

Eric's keychain. It's funny. Read the Chinese word and the English word.

Dear spent $190 on this SPRINT damper. He compliant that he is poor yet he got this =.=''

Last but not least for tonight, let me present the *3 bugs life* =P

Eric is going to kill me for this. But it's rather fun. haha! Wonderful night.

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My sister told me that dinner tomorrow will be at Parkway! It's freaking far from here. If only dear is willing to fetch me there and wait for me after dinner, and that will be awesome. Oh well, we shall see again! haha.

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Dear gave me a link to download a SEGA game. Seems like this "Wani Wani World" game can keep me occupied this weekend. Thanks dear :)

I'm kind of tired today. Maybe my "bleeding" is too much today and riding under the hot sun. haha!

Think i'm going to have an early night.

Good night, folks!

TGIF =)

2009-06-05T17:39:00.000+08:00

I'm beginning to realize that it is so important to save and be thrifty.

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Took a day leave and breathe the air outside, it's rather humid and dry. Rode my bike to bikeworkz and did a replacement for my sprocket and chain. It's cool with red sprocket and gold chain. haha! Recently, I have added some of my secondary school friends and teachers. It happens that most of them don't recognize me. Kind of surprise. Got to know that Yeti is actually my bf's brother camp mate. They are flying to Brunei tonight for three weeks of survival training. Hope they are safe and sound.

It's been so long since I walk into a mall and enjoying every single walk. Observe people around, things around. I enjoy doing such things, somehow it peace out my mind.

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Today it's Friday and yeah it is weekend! Tonight, i'm heading to Boon Lay Nasi Lemak for dinner with bf and friends. But i think i need to watch my wallet and enjoy at the same time. haha! Tomorrow dinner is with sister's bf family and my family. They are getting married and yah, parents-meet-parents ; siblings-meet-siblings session.

I am thinking of how to spend this weekend fruitfully.

okie, the weather is killing me now!

Time to go off to prepare for tonight, ciaoz!